I do not want to conform to the world. I want to look like the opposite of the world...

And so, I will adjust my posture from one of annoyance, to that of gratefulness.

I used to believe that because I was not able to pick all of the circumstances life handed to me, they were second rate circumstances. But now I realize, I do get a choice...

The sting of watching my life as a mom not look the way I had always pictured it, doesn't ever go away. Some days are easier than others and the grief is so faint and so small in my heart that I nearly forget it's there. And other days, it's so big and painful I'm not sure how I will get through it. And that is ok. Grief is a part of this journey.

Our family does have fun, but it is work to master it all. Yet we do it. Because we want to enjoy life, no matter what it looks like. Life is a gift and we try and treasure each day we've been gifted and use it to the most of our ability.